More than a Hookup

She and I were friends back in high school
We went bowling and hung out all the time
She was one of my best friends back then
She was my confidant, my partner in crime

She went off to study theatre out in Eugene
I stayed back home and wrote song after song
And we went out for my twenty second birthday
Then we did something she thought was wrong

Cause I wanted more than just a hookup
I wanted more than just a one night stand
I wanted to be there for her more than ever
I wanted to kiss her often and hold her hand
But she said she didn’t want to risk losing me
She said it would hurt less if I let her go
She said she wanted to stand on her own
And said it would be best if I did that too
It hurt like she just stabbed me in my gut
And I didn’t know then what I would do
Cause I wanted more than just a hookup
Then I found out she was still pining for you

You met when you were at Oregon State
She liked your wisdom and your mentorship
You were a guy she talked about so often
It was like she was tempted to take a dip
In that warm, steamy hot tub at the hotel
With you kissing her and holding her tight
She resisted and later moved on from you
As Johnny Cash would say she saw the light

Cause you’d want more than just a hookup
You’d want more than just a one night stand
You’d want to be there for her more than ever
You’d want to kiss her often and hold her hand
She’d say she didn’t want to risk losing you
She’d say it would hurt less if you let her go
She’d say she wanted to stand on her own
She’d say it would be best if you did that too
It would hurt like she put a knife in your neck
You wouldn’t know then how to act or be
Cause you wanted more than just a hookup
Then you’d find out she was still pining for me

I went on to find others who were just like her
Who’d want me to be their lover then go away
I was a sensitive but average frustrated chump
and met women who’d always keep me at bay
Then I found someone who liked me so much
We weren’t friends before, so there was an intent
To court and see if we were meant to be together
And I don’t regret any moment with her I spent

Saying I wanted more than just a hookup
I wanted more than just a single night stand
I wanted to be there for her more than ever
I wanted to kiss her often and hold her hand
She said she didn’t want to risk losing me
She said it would hurt more if she let me go
She said she wanted us to stand together
to face the storms and the sunsets as one
And we ended up in a Catholic church in LA
We got married and it all worked out ok
Cause we both wanted more than a hookup
We still adore and love each other to this day

We still adore and love each other to this day

March 16, 2020