Adult Themes, Americana, Ballad, Introspective, Love, Love’s Timing, Lyrics, Marriage, No Music Yet, Nostalgia, Optimism, Relationships, Romance, Storytelling, Young Love

Twenty Years Is Not Enough

So long ago, you and I decided to meet
When I saw you, my heart skipped a beat
And I was late getting there to you
You waited but I’m not sure you knew

From that first moment you were in my view
I was nervous and I tried to keep my cool
You were open to the rest of my broken heart
It was time for something special to start
So after many years of ups and downs
A twisted ride but you still kept me around
What we have is more easy than it’s tough
And my love, twenty years isn’t enough

And if it seems like I’m bitter and oh so cold
Maybe it’s because you’ve never seen me old
If I can’t find the solutions you’re looking for
I hope you don’t decide to walk out the door

Cause from that moment you were in my view
I was nervous and I tried to keep my cool
You were open to the rest of my broken heart
It was time for something special to start
And after many years of ups and downs
A twisted ride but you still kept me around
What we have is more easy than rough
So my love, twenty years isn’t enough

I wanna be there when our daughter gets married to the boy who never gave up on her
And thinks to himself if he’s lucky man
They’ll be close like we are and always were

Cause from the moment she was in her view
He was nervous and he tried to keep his cool
And she was open to the rest of his young heart
And they knew something special would start
Then after many years of ups and downs
A twisted ride but she’ll keep him around
I’ll pray to God it will be more easy than tough
And hope they know forever is just enough

November 19, 2022

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Adult Themes, Americana, Autobiographical, Ballad, Heartbreak, Inspired by People, Inspired By Situations, Love, Lyrics, No Music Yet, Old Wounds, Relationships, Wistful

Topics That Trigger Me

If you wanna know, I’ll tell you
the topics that trigger me
So you can hold your tongue
When you’re hellbent & angry

So you won’t use them as weapons
You’ll know better and refrain
From devastating me with them
From causing me unfixable pain

All because I trusted you completely
With topics that trigger me
All because I trusted you completely
With topics that trigger me

They may seem trivial to you
the topics that trigger me
They hurt like a sucker punch
Then I’ll wanna break free

So please, don’t use’em as weapons
You’ll know better and refrain
From dismantling with them
From causing nonreversible pain

All because I trusted you completely
With topics that trigger me
All because I trusted you completely
With topics that trigger me

Promise me you won’t purposely
Shoot me with these memories
Promise me that and I’ll be yours
Like protected land and pine trees
Like protected land and pine trees

All because I trusted you completely
With topics that trigger me
All because I trusted you completely
With topics that trigger me

Please don’t trigger me

October 2, 2022

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Americana, Autobiographical, Inspired by a Place, Inspired by College, Introspective, Nostalgia, Redbird Country Essay, Storytelling

Where is Redbird Country?

I came across an interesting fact when I typed in a Google search for “redbird” years ago. It wasn’t just that one fact that a Redbird is the same as a Northern Cardinal. It’s also a “Summer tanager,” which is not as well known, but it is a medium-sized songbird that was described by a Swedish naturalist back in 1758. The location given was Carolina but it was revised to North Carolina.

As a Santa Cruz County native, I knew that Santa Cruz High School’s mascot is the Cardinal and so is Stanford’s, which is a school I longed to go to when I graduated from High School. I didn’t have the grades for it but I still liked going there to visit with a friend of mine, Mark Hernandez, who was our Senior Class President at Watsonville High School with other friends like my good buddy Gary Rojas who also made the trips during his Freshman 1987-1988 school year.

We eagerly hung out with his new friends in his dorm and I remember one weekend, we got to see the Cardinal Men’s Basketball team and it was such a blast to be able to be inside that arena, watching the excitement, feeling that rush of being alive, seizing the moment while still in our youth, seeing this team out on the court working their butts off for adoration and respect, but most of all, to win the game.

My wife Melanie, who you will be learning a little bit about in these columns I am now writing as a freelancer, graduated with the Class of 1989 from Webb City High School in Webb City, MO, and was part of the school’s dance team called the “Redettes”. Their team was the Cardinals.

The St. Louis Cardinals are a popular team to root for out here in Central Illinois. Sure, there’s the Cubs, but you still will see those diehard fans with their red and white jerseys and hats, parading around town or at work on game days.

Then we know that Illinois State University is the home of the Redbirds and they had several students that went on to become celebrities such as Jane Lynch, Craig Robinson, John Malkovich, Gary Sinise, Sean Hayes, and one of my personal favorites, Gary Cole, who played Bill Lumbergh in the cult classic Office Space.

Illinois State had banners all around Uptown Normal calling it “Redbird Country” but I have not seen them up in a while.

There are 7 States that have named the Northern Cardinal as their “state bird.” They are Illinois, Indiana, Ohio, Kentucky, North Carolina, West Virginia, and then finally, Virginia. They are thought of as being a symbol of hope, joy, health, rejuvenation, and celebration. What I’ve found out is that it is also known among bird watchers that fans of the Northern Cardinal are rare, energetic, and always willing to take care of those in need.

Victoria McGovern once famously said, “May you come to find comfort in and remember: cardinals appear when angels are near. So go now, sit outside and drink your tea. Keep a look out for the little red bird — if it is there, your loved one will be.”

I don’t know if Redbird Country could be considered one place though. I think it’s all around us, because in my travels around the Midwest as an Uber & Lyft Driver, I’ve met countless people from all walks of life who are much like the cardinals mentioned in McGovern’s quote. Those people were like angels to me. I had a passenger last night who I talked with and she said, “I’m proud of you for going back to school.” I didn’t know her before that ride and I may never see her again.

So, in the question, “Where is Redbird Country?” – I have to reply that Redbird Country is everywhere but especially, after living here in Central Illinois for almost 20 years now, that even if I was not raised here, it is most certainly in my heart.

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About Family, Adult Themes, Americana, Ballad, Inspired by People, Inspired By Situations, Lyrics, No Music Yet, Nostalgia, Storytelling, Tribute Song, Women

Queen of Beer

When she died
All the family rejoiced
She was in so much pain
They did a long stein-hoist
They cheered and hollered
They were anxious to hear
What they were inheriting
From the true Queen of Beer

There was cash
All the jewels and homes
And the antique furniture
Her volumes of poems
They drank all the whiskey
They didn’t cry a single tear
Her death was a blessing
To heirs of the Queen of Beer

As they read the will they wept
But they accepted it with grace
She was buried in a simple coffin
In a gown made of linen and lace
Just a cross was her grave marker
In the town where she was raised
The Christian school she attended
Were surprised and amazed
When they opened their envelope
And read the long note she wrote
They would receive her whole estate
Except the Summer Home and Boat

They all stayed Labor Day Weekend
But went sailing the following Spring
The adults had grown tired of the tradition
But the kids thought it was everything

They found her stash
In an large oak and cedar chest
They chose to not report it
To keep it secret would be best
Let’s just say they had enough
To maintain the home every year
They’re grateful forever for being
The heirs of the Queen of Beer

The Matriarch and Queen of Beer

September 13, 2022

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Adult Themes, Americana, Country Song, Inspired by People, Lyrics, No Music Yet, Optimism, Snarky, Southern Traditions

Rowdy Rednecks

Get yourself a rowdy redneck
To liven up the rest of your days
Fall in love with a rowdy redneck
To change your Yankee ways

They don’t compromise their terms
They laugh more than they cry
Marry a rugged rowdy redneck
They’ll be loyal to ya ‘til they die

Befriend a bunch’a rowdy rednecks
They’ll always have your back
Get drunk with rowdy rednecks
But don’t make fun of the gun rack

Or they’ll snap you like a twig
They’re moody but they’re fun
Oh, hang with the Rowdy Rednecks
You’ll find they’re not so dumb

They’ll teach you how to fish
They’ll beat your ass in darts
They’ll tell ya filthy jokes
And laugh at burps ‘n farts

You’ll find ‘em whoopin’ it up
In the town where you are
Oh, they’re the best,
Those Rowdy Rednecks –
Just Google “Local Country Bar”

They’ll be gettin’ hammered there
At your local crazy country bar

Yeehaw!

September 2, 2022

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Soon Enough

I was twenty three
I liked this girl so much
I wanted her soft touch
And hold her close to me

But I had no game
She was seeing a guy
He was eagle, I was a firefly
In a jar wanting to to be free

In that push and pull relationship
I knew that something was wrong
But I didn’t care
I wasn’t scared
Cause I could write her a song
About how much I had fallen
And how much I would do
And I’d play it her someday
So she would know the truth
And I would call her bluff
Oh, and that day
Couldn’t come soon enough

Then I was twenty eight
She called me for a coffee date
I thought it might be fate
She was returning to me

She grew up, so did I
And when I saw her smile
Mem’ries flooded my mind
And it knew it was meant to be

That push and pull relationship
Changed into something right
And we shared
I wasn’t scared
Cause she stayed the night
And I played the song for her
Then she got so confused
About us and what we were
She told me her inner truth
I had called her on her bluff
She packed up
Couldn’t get out soon enough

I misjudged her intentions
I thought she’d seen the light
She turned to me for the real thing
Once they got into a blowout fight
But she didn’t see it my way
She said she liked the single life
I finally got what she was sayin’
She was never gonna be my wife

At the age of thirty two
We were given another chance
We did that wedding dance
She cherishes me tenderly
She treats me the same
as she did back when
It happened soon enough
Now we have a family

Yeah, it happened soon enough
Our loving, joyful, incredible family

August 21, 2022

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Hardcore Country A**holes

You came in with a chip on your shoulder
Wearin’ a ripped Pabst Blue Ribbon shirt
Your hair’s greasy under that STP cap
And your jeans are covered in mud & dirt

Take a look around and what do ya see
I’ll give ya a hint, all our Harleys outside
We just got off the road and restin’
From a three hundred mile ride

This bar ain’t for rednecks or hillbillies
It’s for good ol’ boys like the Hag
We don’t want any troublemakers
Or any sissy boys on the rag
We’re here to take a load off from bein’
hardcore country a**holes out there
So best be on your way, goddammit
Any fight with us would be unfair

You came in with chaw under your lip
And just spit into my hard earned beer
I got news for you, new kid in town
We don’t do that here – Are we clear?

This place ain’t for hillbillies or rednecks
It’s for good ol’ boys like us and you
Outside, we’re called troublemakers
We’ve hurt a lot of people, it’s true
So take a load off from bein’ like us
hardcore country a**holes out there
As the leader of this tough guy gang
Here’s my jacket you can have & wear

August 16, 2022

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Squirt, Beer Nuts, and You

I remember the first time I tasted it
I must have been oh, about fifteen
I got some on my Mack Truck shirt
I thought I was the man on the scene

But I wasn’t the guy I hoped I was
Till that summer at camp when
I changed for the better because

You turned me on to Beer Nuts
With a big ol’ cup of Squirt
It took away all my frustration
It cut out all my butthurt
Now no matter where we are
It’s my favorite go-to
Nothin’s better for me than
Squirt, Beer Nuts & You

I’ve loved every beer nut I’ve had
Squirt has always quenched my thirst
And your kisses filled up my heart
So much I thought it would burst

The longer we’re together, babe
The more I love you every day
I wouldn’t want anything different
Life would suck any other way

You turned me on to Beer Nuts
With a big ol’ cup of Squirt
It took away all my frustration
It cut out all my butthurt
Now no matter where we are
It’s my favorite go-to
Nothin’s better for me than
Squirt, Beer Nuts & You

Pizza and beer’s pretty good
So is Kansas City BBQ
But all the food or drink can’t compare
And it’s time you knew

Oh I would climb the highest mountain
I would do anything you want me to
I’d go barefoot on ice in my underwear
For Squirt, Beer Nuts and You

For Squirt, Beer Nuts and You

August 7, 2022

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She’ll Come To You

You wonder when she’ll show her face
You walk all the sidewalks in this town
Drive to see someone you liked online
But afterwards you get a little down

Is it because you’ve been so lonely
You think you needs to happen soon
Planning out your perfect first date
By the water, under the fullest moon
But you’ve gotta know it’ll be worth it
If you wait for a love that’s true
Don’t be chasing that girl
Dude, she’ll come to you
She’ll come to you

I see you looking at all the ladies
At the neighborhood pub and bars
I see you guys in your fancy clothes
You’re driving in your muscle cars

Is it because you’ve been so lonely
You think it needs to happen soon
Planning another special second date
On a blanket under the fullest moon
But you’ve gotta know it’ll be worth it
If you wait for a love that’s true
Don’t be pushing that girl
Dude, she’ll come to you
She’ll come to you

I once had that heart like yours, man
I tried too hard to make someone mine
And in the end I just pressed too hard
But it never turned out better or fine

It was because I’d been so lonely
I thought it needed to happen soon
Planning date after date after date
Swimming under the fullest moon
I should of known it would be worth it
Waiting for a love that’s real and true
Trust me friend, give her some space
Dude, she’ll come to you
She’ll come to you
She’ll come to you

August 7, 2022
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